shh~

diam-diam ubi berisi,
diam-diam budi dibalas,
diam-diam tersengih sendiri,
diam-diam mimpi kian jelas,
diam-diam cinta bersemi,
diam-diam telinga dipulas.

ouch. tapi,

diam-diam sungguh-sungguh,
diam-diam jangan mengeluh,
diam-diam buang yang keruh,
diam-diam usah mengguruh,
diam-diam bukan jatuh,
diam-diam sampai utuh.

ameen.

p/s: happy beday kepada aisyah dan acu :)

ahnaf, 11 tahun

'mama dah dapat baju raye kamu tau. F buatkan.'

'fuyoohh. bia btul! mama cakap ape?'

'mama hepi giler. mama kate nak pakai hr first raye.'

'giler ah. x aci btul. potong line ni. haha. ni macam F sayang mama lebih dr dia sayang hasif jek.'

'aii. kate nak amek ati bakal mak mentua. kena lah wat camtu..'

'kamu lak ahnaf, xde awek ke?'

'emm..ahnaf xde awek..hari tu kawan ahnaf mintak ahnaf tlg carikan awek untuk dia. pastu skali tu die kte dia dah jumpe. cumenya, dia kata satu je slack kat perempuan tu.'

'apenye?'

'budak perempuan tu tak pakai tudung.'

'ohh. kamu ni cakap orang, kamu tak de ke?'

'alahh..hari tu ade gak jumpe. pandang-pandang camtu je lah..'

'apsal kamu tak tegur die..?'

'jumpe kat rawang lah..'

'haha..awek mane laa kamu pandang-pandang ni. entah keling mane ke ape ke. weh, die putih ke gelap ke cokelat?'

'cokelat..'

'hahaaa..lawak gile kamu nih. boleh lak cite pasal awek camtu. ececece ahnaf da ade awek..'

'yong, dah dah lah tu. enough, k. enough.'

aku rasa nak gelak terguling-guling. ahnaf langsung tak gelak, serius memanjang. dah matang katenye. lagi lah aku rasa nak gelak.

aihh. kadang-kadang aku confused; aku tak balik rumah dekat 2 tahun ke 10 tahun senanye? siapa tua siapa muda senanye ni?

haha. lawak seyh adik-adik aku.

i've been childish, haven't i?

:)
thanks dr Ng. i owe you one.

just tell me that everything will get better..

~ sometimes, Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul. He breaks our heart to make us whole. He sends us pain so we can be stronger. He sends us failure so we can be humble. He sends us illness so we can take care of ourselves. Sometimes, God takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything He gave us..Allah is great! (quotes sent by mak unggal- learn something)

~ honestly i also learnt that im not very strong, ma..now im far from home so please..please dont make me think im losing some more..that something not pleasant might happen and all i can do is watch and accept it..coz im not that strong to simply bear it empty-handed..just help me to believe that things will get better..that's all i need..

~ insyaAllah, ma doakan anak ma tak lagi hadapi banyak kesedihan. tujuan ma cume nak ingatkan, banyak minta dan berdoa pada Allah, benda yang baik2

~ insyaAllah will always do that..will do that in my every breath..thanks ma..

~ only time, age and lots of experience will teach you to be stronger. walaubagaimanapun berbaik sangka dengan Allah. ingat apa cakap pakcik amer! Allah tak duga hambaNya kecuali pada yang mampu sahaja. Kalau Allah duga kamu, maknanya memang kamu mampu bersabar

~im trying..

i've opened my heart to love,

so i've opened my heart to pain.

and all i have to face it all,

is You.

double blasts in 3 days

dan semalam seorang lagi semestian meninggal. arwah seorang budak lelaki form 3. innalillah. 2 deaths in less than a week..i told him 'please and do take care, because im not that strong to face anymore of these'. and i wish to say that to everyone i know, especially the ones that i love.

please, do take care. please.

still His wishes are more powerful than mine. some prayers are just not answered. and He said that if He doesnt answer that means He has better plans for us.

and that we should hold on. appreciate everything we have and work hard.

im trying. im trying.

p/s: alfatihah.

innalillah

malam tadi aku dpt nightmare. sorang member family ak meninggal. terkejut aku bila bangun dari tido. wondering nape aku mimpi macam tu.

dan hari ni abal bagitau paah dah meninggal. pukul 11 pagi tadi 3 ramadan 1429H kat HUKM. pemphigus vulgaris tu nampaknya lebih kuat dari paah kali ni. belum pernah kawan aku meninggal. cantik orangnya, muda lagi, putih tinggi lampai, suka senyum dan sangat baik hati.

tadi aku sempat tengok friendster dia walaupun tak dapat jenguk dia time sakit. sedihnya. insyaAllah ada kelapangan aku akan ziarah family n kubur dia.

alfatihah.

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p/s: ya Allah, ampunilah dosa-dosa kami dan perkenankanlah doa-doa kami. ameen...