Tuesday, 21 July 2009

because he said that a good head and a good heart is always a formidable combination

yes, it has been ages.

maybe because of the winter. God i know there's always beauty in winter and that once i go back home i will surely miss it but i still cannot love it that much. my nose got stuffed and it bleeds and i cannot breath properly, causing my lack of sleep and headache i am amazed how my head can become so painful. and i am also thrilled at how i can be tired so easily. my sore throat too; they come and go without any warnings, especially late at night.

almost 22 weeks more to go. be patient, it's half of the Faith.

i want to do so much. so much that many times i got succumbed by my own thoughts and voices. the ideas keep spilling out and sometimes it's so daunting to think that i am still far from realizing them. i always think about whether i will have the time and strength and whether i will succeed in achieving my dreams. so cliche, yet so true. the same as when i think about how much i love you. i am afraid if i cannot make it and fulfill my promises.

yet you always tell me to keep it slow and steady, and convincing me that i will make it. at times when i feel like standing on my knees and cry you softly brush away my fears and hold me tight in your arms. it makes me realize that i am so lucky that God puts you in my life and be my dearest soulmate, so i should be thankful and strong. i love you so much. i love you always.

and as ust azli said we must have plans for 20 or even 50 years ahead. and while i was scrubbling them down i know that i must prepare my very best and enjoy every pinch of flavour my dreams are offering to me. o Allah, please grant us our wishes, set us as good examples and helpers to mankind and give us contentment now and hereafter.

ameen ya rabbal alameen.

Friday, 10 July 2009

sebab aku tak pernah lupa untuk mahu balik

kalau bila PPSMI dimansuhkan aku rasa sedih adakah itu bermaksud aku bukannya seorang melayu yang baik?

ah, itu tak penting. let by gone be by gone. yang penting anak-anak aku nanti mesti terdidik supaya mereka tak membayar harga apa-apa kebodohan aku dan kita semua di zaman ini. sebab kita meminjam hari ini dari masa depan mereka, jadi kita tiada hak untuk mencabulinya.

p/s: selamat menyambut hari jumaat.. ;-]